some little shots from our past year!!
gosh, it never ceases to amaze me just how quickly these years are going by. honestly, sometimes life feels long and dragging, and sometimes it feels like if i blink i’ll suddenly be 70! both of these notions are so hard for me, as i’ve always been a little bit restless and at the same time, so very afraid of time going too quickly. finding that happy in-between is my constant mission and challenge. how to glide through life instead of either floating disconnectedly above it all or swinging dramatically around every turn. how to soak up the sweet and appropriately acknowledge the bitter. how to start every day with a fresh cup of coffee and a fresh heart!
and that’s life, right! finding your “balance.” actually, i don’t believe in balance quite so much as finding what kind of juggle works for you… what kind of kooky circus act leaves you tired but fulfilled. 🙂
i’m grateful for the last decade to say the least! it brought me my precious babies. our house on a hill. more loss than i was interested in. but also, bonus siblings! and a german shepherd!!
i have to note, too, that in this last decade, i feel like i’ve come face to face with… myself. my humble ole self. the raw and the ugly. the weak and the crumbling. in so many ways the very failure that i never wanted to be. but also… the strong. the grounded. the confident. the grateful. i’m blessed beyond what i deserve, and goodness, don’t i know it! oh yes, this decade has both tumbled me recklessly and stabilized me all at once.
one thing that hasn’t changed for me in this decade or the last is my love for photos. capturing the small moments as well as big… in crappy quality or a fafillion striking pixels… for so long this hobby has been my lifeline. my connection to the knowledge that life is good. my ability to reflect on so much joy that’s been had along this beautiful, layered, fleeting, bittersweet, fun journey. and a creative outlet!
so… hey! how about some thoughts that have really sunken in this last decade?
…beauty isn’t always obvious. joy isn’t always where you expect to find it. but it’s there!
…you can’t control everything. or anything, really, outside of your own decisions. but you can always pray.
…you reap what you sow. and sometimes you reap what someone else sows. it’s not always fair. don’t expect it to be!
…everything changes. except God.
…hard doesn’t mean bad. challenge is what grows you! and grows your relationships.
…grandeur is overrated. give me a view of God’s handiwork, little hands to hold, and big i love yous to share. [i mean, i do love the rococo period and my louis vuitton bag, though!]
…that being said, you can’t take it with you, so don’t get too attached, buuut sometimes it’s true that you get what you pay for! i’ve become such a fan of quality over quantity. or both if you can swing it. don’t break the bank, but also, YOLO.
is YOLO coming with us in 2020? no? haha. can’t wait to find out what weird stuff we say this next decade! 😉
thank you, 2019!
thank you, decade! for my bunnies, mostly. for family and health and sunshine and labor and freedom and laughter and tears and hugs and all the things that mean we’re still here doing earth things. 🙂
ps. who is making it til midnight tonight?!
HAPPY NEW DECADE, FRIENDS!!
Happy New Years to you lady! I am right there with you about thriving versus just surviving… I wish I had the answers! Time is a strange strange mistress and i have issues with it. Hard to believe this is a whole new decade! My fourth to be exact! Yikes!